Well its official, my baby is getting older. She turns one today at 6:00 pm, so she is not quite one yet. I cannot believe it! I thought that I would cry, but I am actually in a state of shock. One year ago today, I was in a state of utter bliss and I am thrilled to say that I remain in a state of utter bliss.
While I am pondering this year that went by so fast. All of the sudden it hit me, I am surrounded by pink polka dots, dancing ballerinas, Peter Rabbit and all his books, pink tea pots and stuffed animals, how did it go by so fast? One minute I am holding this tiny swaddled bundle of joy and then I blink and she is walking and playing with all of her toys, and I think, please God, don't let it all go by so fast! I just cherish this stage... well who I am I kidding I cherish it all.
How is it that the worst stages of our lives seem to crawl by at a turtles pace, and the best things seem race by? I know that I have said this before, but I just cannot get over the fact that it really has been one year. Oh how blessed we are to have been a part of Caroline's life for this year. I know that God made her just for us. When nights are long, and trust me that is often, sometimes all I can think about is the mom who so wants to rock her baby, but can't. Or for how many women would give anything to have a baby to pick up and rock in the middle of the night.
I do not know why their answer was "no" or "not now", and trust me I have wanted to be on this end for a VERY long time. All I do know is that since God finally said "now is the time" for me, I find myself holding Caroline longer, rocking Caroline more, hugging Caroline tighter, Kissing her often, telling her "I love you" constantly, and daily reminding myself of how blessed beyond measure we are to have her. I still cannot believe that God has entrusted me with this little bundle of joy! What an awesome resposibility! I pray daily that God will use me to help grow her into being a fully devoted follower of Christ, who loves God and loves others.
Here are a few of our swimming pictures. Can you tell that I just love her?
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